wow, i'm pooped. i took two more overtimes next week. if i don't take them, i get forced. at least this way i can plan ahead.

i still need to decide what to do. i wish i could explain. it has to do with the fact that i'm not ready to let myself get involved with anyone because i have intimacy issues still. i cannot and will not allow myself to get close to anyone. it just plain sucks ass. damn it.

i need to sleep. guten nacht.