i think that maybe i might be in over my head on this renovating the living room thing. i forget that my house was built in 1949 and it wasn't maintained very well by the previous owners. i have one wall spackled, primered and ready to go. the wall with the picture window is turning into my worst nightmare. it apparently had water damage at one time and someone did a marvelous job of hiding it. i might have to re-drywall that wall. glorious. the original paint is this crazy blood red colour. i think murderers owned this place.

i'm going to call the vet tomorrow. i have to be a man and do what's right. it really bums me out because darrian has days where he's really spunky and wants to fight and play and run around and then he had days where all he does is sleep. i'm going to see what the vet thinks. he might say to let him go quietly in the night here. i know it's a pipedream, but i would rather he die quietly in his sleep here than on some cold table in a vet where he's scared. this is so hard.

i've had it with pop-up ads. i think we should file a lawsuit against microsoft corporation for adding that little wonderful toy to windows 2000 and xp. invasion of privacy lawsuit. i would love to sue the fuck out of billy gates for it. god damn advertisements. you can't get rid of the bastards. can you imagine some nine year old kid reading, "come see cindy take a monster cock in her ass." it ain't right. oh, and that's exactly what the one said as i was typing here.