so, yeah, midnights again. yea. i'm waiting for my clothes to dry so i can go to bed at 8:00am. how f'd up is that? i have t wait until i'm tired in order to get a decent days sleep. if i force myself asleep, i'll wake up in five hours still tired and unable to fall back asleep.

i'm going to go to emike's b-day party tonight with michelle. it'll be our first public appearance in a while. we haven't had time to do anything lately. i think our relationship is starting to suffer because of it. we have both been too exhausted to do anything. and when your exhausted, your cranky and cranky means knitpicking and that means fights. i hate to fight and i hate being cranky. i hate being this tired all the time. i hate swing shift. i hate that i worked 148 hours in the last 2 weeks.

i hate that my girlfriend has school full-time and works full time and is considering breaking off our relationship because she just doesn't have time. i hate it. that would have to be the stupidest reason to break up ever. i think you should always have time for the people you love. i would rather her go part time work and let me pay for everything than do something as drastic as break up. i understand her needs and i've been trying to be very understanding, but damn, i have needs sometimes too. i hate it, god damn it!

awww yeah, the drier buzzer, time for nighty night.