too many birthdays together. my cousin, denise was on the 2nd. hayden on the 5th. miss kelly egan today and my mom on the 16th. sheesh. i'm suprised i remember all of them.

i hope hayden likes the little rockey horse i bought him. i figured he could do hi little retard rock with some style. go go go!

darrian took a turn for the worse today. he's having a hard time breathing. i don't know what to do. the vets told me this would happen when it got to his lungs. i'm so heartbroken. i can't put him down yet. i still need some more time with him. i can't stand the thought of losing him. FUCK!

should be interesting tonight. i'll be as polite as i can because it's kelly's party and i don't want to be a fuckhead.