this last friday while standing knee deep in the pacific ocean, i wondered how tomorrow could ever follow today as i watched the sun melt into the horizon. i stood there in awe, but also completely alone as i realized that i wasn't sharing this moment with anyone but myself. it carries it's own gratification because in moments like that, i reflect on my life.

i thought of a man whose shoes i once wore and how a different person walks in those very shoes today. i thought of life's trials and joys. i though of how you can give yourself so completely to someone that they will never understand that magnitude and really neither will i. how it takes a lifetime to get over that and how you go from day to day.

i thought of what felt like other lives, except they were actually my own. i remebered childhood friends, how i don't know where they are at this moment and i thought of a close friend whom i lost twice. once in life and second in death.

i though of where i am now. here in the present and where i would like to be in the future. i don't try to underestand these moments of reflection, i just take them as they come. just as the moon turns the tides gently, gently away.